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This is Claudia's sweet baby Alexa Lee. Born May 21 11:33PM weighing only 3lbs 15oz. She's precious!
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I know that I need not to want of worldly things. They will be provided to me when the time is right. Any angst, envy, guilt, desire until that point is brought by the devil himself and I have already decided that through the Lord, that the devil will not have any hold over me. Ever. It is amazing the ways in which the devil shows himself when you are already so confident in what you have, he comes and rocks your foundation just the slightest bit. It feels like your world is crumbling, but set your sights on the Lord and know that He will only comfort you. What an amazing God we have.

Please help me not to envy. To understand my circumstances. To change the things that I can. To do. I have a lot to learn. And even more to merely realize.

I am very nervous about things right now. I told myself I would try not to be but here I am. I am nervous about the money I will not have from a steady income, but at the same time, I know I am following my dream. God, please give me the strength and energy I need to really take charge of my business, not to be lazy anymore. I need your strength and guidance through this so that I have confidence through you. Savior, Please. This is my plea.

Isn't it amazing??

God's grace and truly impeccable timing and wisdom. I realize just how insignificant I am when I think about how great He is. He is making me see so many things right now and gain such realization about some things. I am learning through a series at my church and through my own circumstances of late that no one is perfect and we all have areas to work on more so than some others. I am just beginning to learn...and I thought I had already done so much, but I am realizing also just how much I don't know at all. Just now I am battling with what to do in a lot of ways. In many ways I am in the same place I was 2 years ago, which is really scary...I've got to let it all go and do what I know I need to do and just let God work in me and in my surroundings in the way I know he will. Jeremiah 29:11 tells us that "I say this because I know what I am planning for you. I have good plans for you, not plans to hurt you. I will give you hope and a good future." These words bring me such strength and encouragement just to know that God's word is alive and working in me everyday. I have a daily devotional book and it is so crazy to me how much each entry relates to what I'm going through. It told me today to learn to relate to others through His love rather than my own, and those words spoke more to me with what I'm going through than I could have imagined. My own human love is ever so limited, full of flaws and manipulation. I do truly need to learn how to let go of so much more that I try to control. It is amazing to me that even the little things I try to control by myself are so difficult...not that I even realized it in this case, but I read my devotional and it all comes full circle. It simply amazes me. Again and again.